what do i want?!
(Originally posted on blogdrive dd Saturday, February 28, 2009)
i am so pissed! there are times when i dont really know what to write anymore. There are times when i dont even know how to react. she
like, she
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what do i want?!
..block buster tlga ang IST..
(Originally posted on Blogbrive dd Saturday, July 04, 2009)
Nakakainis! yung site na nagbibigay buhay sken, ayun blocked na din! Asar! Anuber??! Bawal pla mag-enjoy sa ofis. Haay... Nakakamiss mag-plurk. Sayang naman. Malamang mag zero ang Karma points ko. Kalungkot.
..alone..
(Originally posted on Blogdrive dd Tuesday, May 19, 2009)
wheeew! come to think of it..i was actually thinking of an outlet that
oh well! dont get me wrong..i mean! yes! i love my honey and its perfectly fine for me that she
but sometimes..oh well! sometimes i want something of my own! just my own! nothing too much..just enough to spill out everything am thinking and im feeling without hesitation..oh well! those who know me and my big fucking mouth (in this case hands)..would definitely agree that i do have the big tendency to be the world
oh well! what do i really like to write?!! alot actually..been going through alot but i just dont have time to post..hmmm...
maybe till next tym..am beginning to be non sense again...as always
How Dare You!
I’m a passive Filipino. I’m uber-ly guilty of that. Even as a student, I won’t know why my fellow students are rallying outside PLM. I just let them shout their hearts out while I linger on my safe corner (the GV stairs).
But this morning, as I was reading the yahoo news updates as part of my everyday morning ritual, I read the following:
“Whatever monies may have been spent for the appropriately
ceremonious conduct of her official trip abroad are but a tiny fraction of
the billions of pesos she has committed, and will continue to commit to
the alleviation of hunger and the amelioration of poverty in our country,”
-taken from Yahoo! News: Suarez: I normally host PGMA' s dinners
I only have one word for you Mr. Presidential Spokesperson Anthony Golez – KAPAL!
Where’s that billion pesos that you are claiming your boss provided for the Filipino people?!!
Have you been outside Malacanang?!!
You don’t need to go far Mr. Spokesperson. Just take a look at the squatters just outside Malacanang. Those kids who has nothing to eat and was begging for some coins to feed their younger siblings.
Do you know how many Filipino graduates are jobless until now?!! I always listen to this evening radio program where most of the DJ’s callers are Nursing graduates and board passers who call themselves “TAMBAY”! Are you even aware of that?!
How dare you say that 1 million fucking pesos are appropriately spent for that damn HEARTLESS DINNER (to borrow my friend’s term)?! You are getting into my nerves!!!
I won’t say too much anymore. I can’t refrain from using vulgar language. I do apologize to my readers. But this is so sad. Why are we letting this people use our money? I know they are using OUR money. I know it and it’s killing me. This is so so sad.
All points raised by Jerellt are so true. I was supposed to just share a link here since my arguments are just the same. But then I read the above. And I really can’t help but get so pissed off.
..Ruined Mood..
Am in a good mood. Eventhough:
- I have too many tasks but too little time.
- I just had a 15 min talk with my head because – oh well! Because am a girl who speaks up.
- I am hungry.
- I am worried because I am getting w-i-d-e-r!
- I don’t have clothes to wear anymore. (for reasons, see # 4)
- I really wanna go somewhere away from the city.
- I have debts to pay.
- I m missing my family. L
But well! Now, my mood is so ruined! Thanks to you…
..Overflowing Rages..
CONFUSED – def. disoriented mentally (from www.thesaurus.com).
CONFUSING – def. puzzling (from www.thesaurus.com).
A friend once said – “Confused and Confusing Kid ako! Nobody wants to listen to an emo kid! And its better that you don’t know me, you’d regret it if you knew me a little bit more.”
And I can’t even agree more! Hahaha..(loko ako! Mabasa nya to! Oh well!)
Mentally disoriented and puzzling??!! Hhhhmmm…Is it even possible? I mean, yeah! We can be a pain in the a@# sometimes but hey! I know in one way or another, somebody would understand us and what we’re going through and why we choose to be like this or do that. Right?!
Hell no!!! I won’t understand her! I mean! WTF! Why is she acting like one helluva loser?!! Is it even my fault?!! I ASKED!!!!!! I fucking asked you more than once! I am beginning to think am already being papansin so I stopped. But whatever!! Why do you have to make me look like a complete idiot there!? I AM NOT STUPID! Maybe you are. Thank you eTelecare Global Solutions and your 2 month people relations training. And thank you all irate callers of Vonage Technical Support. And thank you Jpeg Carino for always telling me to smile and chillax everytime an irate (S2pid!) caller is on the line. Coz I am sure I’d crush that girl right there and then if I am still the 4’10” dragon that I am in SPi. So I was there. I was smilling and saying “am sorry I didn’t know” with smiles on my face eventhough I wanna punch her and crush her glasses on her face. I mean, do you really have to act like that? What’s your fucking problem?!! You tell me!! And to think…she’s only like that to me! YES! To me! Me and my gorgeous ass! Wahahahah…grrrrr….
Nakakainis ka!!!
.rumblings.
Loads of those! That’s what I always do these days…
Rumbling – def. The sound of complaint; Deep and slow sounding
Deep! Hell yeah! Very deep complaint! From my bone marrow to every fiber of my being, that’s what I always seem to do. Complain! But I do not shout it out to the world, like I used to. Now I make hush sounds that I cannot spit out. Too afraid that I might hurt her….hurt her more! Although I am more hurt in the process. In the first place, I didn’t do this on purpose. If only she could grow up and be a little more mature, maybe like a ten year old should. Then maybe, just maybe, things would be different. Somehow….
I’d never regret a single thing. All that that happened for the past months are things that I am so glad that happened. I learned. I am who I am because of those. I am not perfect. That is something I have accepted a long time ago. And I am glad of my imperfections. And I am still proud to be me. Still proud to be the little imperfect Aubrey that I am.
There used to be a time when I thought…”ah! Finally!” But now, my “ah! Finally!” seems like a far away dream again. I told a new friend, I am as clear as the water from the imburnal! Right now, I felt like I stumbled on the imburnal. Face down! And my “ah! Finally!” is there…but instead of giving me a helping hand, my “ah! Finally!” laughed and left me. There… on the imburnal! With no one but the smell and feeling of unimportance…………………………………………….
..bottled teardrops for sale..
Have you ever felt like??!! Hmmm…oh well…someone or something is just making you so happy you wanna puke??!! Am not kidding! OK! OK! Not really puke or whatever..but something close..like butterflies on your stomachs or kilig or just plain happiness…oh well! whatever! because I do! Honestly! Coz just like minutes ago…I felt like a total loser! My head is aching like hell…I need to finish this REPORT again before the day ends (that’s literally before the day ends as I have to finish it before 12AM!)…and I think I do have Ah1n1 as our building is going crazy about this contingency whatever deploying hand sanitizers everywhere only to find out one of the building tenants is already diagnosed positive with the flu and one of my colleague here is actually on 3 day quarantine because of possible ah1n1 infection…so I was like “whaoah!” I have fever right now!!!! Heller!! I think I better see my doctor…so anyway, going back…I am right here in front of my laptop trying to finish the report and thinking how short my life would be if ever I am ah1n1 positive…come to think of it…am not even in good terms with my mom!!! So oh well…I received an email….and well…now I am happy! What’s the email all about??!! Aha! That I wont tell! @_@
It’s enough that it makes me so happy………….Huh! Talk about balance!!!
..a little poem..
the stupid girl has decided to reside in my thoughts...
and now i am doomed to never forget her..
if i use some sort of mental telepathy, do you think i'd dwell in her mind too?
i should really stop thinking about her...
she makes me forget sleep…
****a poem from long ago :(
..Why oh Why??!! Am I not informed??!!
huhuhuhu…this link was sent to me by Je just today…and I just learned that Samantha Ronson, my other Shane…my other love…the reason of my existence (oh ok! That’s OA! But whatever!) is actually here on
anyway…am not really a fan of bars and clubs so I don’t think I’d enjoy it anyway…just wanna be OA! for this blog…hahahahha…
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